No make up?!

Ok so this post is going to be a bit more personal....

Do you guys ever leave the house without make up on? I couldn't.

I've come to the decision that i do hide behind make up a lot- not because i "slap it on" and change what i look like completely, but because i'm so ashamed of my skin and paranoid about my dark circles.

Let me tell you about my skin and why i have to hide behind foundation. I've always had good skin growing up- i never suffered with acne. but in around january of 2010 i started breaking out a lot more and now it won't ever really leave me alone. I feel a bit alienated because all of my friends' skin has improved and got past the spotty stage whereas mine has just reached it. i want to be able to leave the house fresh faced but it's just impossible.

Here's the second reason why. My skin has a LOT of scarring from spots. Even on the odd day where there's no spots around the corners of my mouth and chin (my problem areas) i still have to use foundation. I even once got to the point where i went out with just eye make up and no foundation to buy a fathers day present for my dad. Here we ran into a family friend (who's male and lacking in tact and subtlety) and he even said "i can tell you're stressed. Look at those zits!" When in reality all he was looking at was the scarring. which in all honesty has set me back even further.

I hope today that will all change.

Recently in the past month or so i have been getting closer to a certain boy and it looks like we may have a potential future. Due to circumstances beyond our control skype is the only way we can talk face to face. We tend to skype late at night. Yet last night he wanted to skype after i'd got ready for bed (i.e taken make up off and washed face) now i'd have been happy (ok fine not happy, but willing) to let him see me make up less but once i wash my face its all over. So last night he went on camera but i wouldn't. Now tonight i promised he could see me without make up (after i've taken it off but before i wash my face ofc)

This may not seem a big deal but given that i'm an only child whose parents have only recently given permission for boyfriends to stay over no guy has ever seen me without make up. And i'm a little nervous...

Sorry for the ramble but if i can't be honest here where can i be?

So what's your guys' opinion on going bare faced for a boy and going out in public? Are you like me? Help and comments appreciated!

Much love xxxxx